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You can run… But you can’t hide….


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~2 Corinthians 4:8-9~

We are hedged in (pressed) on every side [troubled and oppressed in every way], but not cramped or crushed; we suffer embarrassments and are perplexed and unable to find a way out, but not driven to despair; We are pursued (persecuted and hard driven), but not deserted [to stand alone]; we are struck down to the ground, but never struck out and destroyed;

When the weight of stress and responsibility presses all around you there are certain things, well a lot actually that you can’t run from as much as you would like to. While driving along up in the hills the other weekend to visit some family, the tranquillity that I began to sense all around just made me want to escape and stay there with them – the greenery of the forest, the open fire, the crisp fresh air, the innocence of children and nature. I turned and said to my husband jokingly “If you like, just drop me off anywhere on the side of the road and I’ll head off into the bush. Tell people I have gone walk about!” He laughed but knew the element of seriousness in my joke.

I was experiencing a strong feeling of wanting to run away from things, the things that feel as if they are crushing me and it feels like there is nowhere to run that will really allow escape, I can’t escape from my thoughts, my world etc and neither can you. Even the best I could do that day in the hills was forget about certain things for an hour till they came rushing back into my head. And, even if I did run, how true is it to say that ‘you can run but you can’t hide’!

One big obstacle to running is the fact that most of the issues we want to run from are actually responsibilities. There is an element of ‘no option’ involved isn’t there. Yes some people will say ‘there are always options’ but there are some things you just can’t make go away, only find the way to deal with them. I have learnt though, through many painful and boundary less experiences of the past that there is a balance to be struck between responsibility and guilt and we need to strike it well in order to succeed and find peace.

Circumstances cause anxiety to rise, and we have to face what is in front of us and up ahead of us. The only way I can do this is one day at a time and one minute at a time. How do I avoid taking on responsibility in an out of balance way when these things are delicate? Well I need to find my boundaries and I need to offload the weight of responsibility where it belongs. For me where it belongs is in the hands of God. It was only a few days later that through a lot of prayer and support by close friends that I began to feel the weight lift off me and God’s supernatural peace settled in a very strong way.

In the end though my challenge is to make the choice not to run, not hide but also not carry what I can’t carry and not try and fix what I can’t fix.

In the bible Habakkuk 3:17-19 says “Though the fig tree does not blossom and there is no fruit on the vines, [though] the product of the olive fails and the fields yield no food, though the flock is cut off from the fold and there are no cattle in the stalls, yet I will rejoice in the Lord; I will exult in the [victorious] God of my salvation! And [Romans. 8:37.] The Lord God is my Strength, my personal bravery, and my invincible army; He makes my feet like hinds’ feet and will make me to walk [not to stand still in terror, but to walk] and make [spiritual] progress upon my high places [of trouble, suffering, or responsibility]!

The things we ‘know’, like information, is one of the things that makes us responsible in life, so ignorance can be bliss too sometimes , another thing that makes us responsible are commitments that we have, and we can’t run from most of those. Consequences will usually end up dictating what our course of action will be! So what do we do when we feel we have no choice? What do we do when we feel trapped and unable change our situations? Well if this is where you find yourself, like I have felt at times there is only one thing to do… bunker down, get in and get close to God and He can give you everything you need to get through.

The truth is in reality although we may perceive that we are trapped, with God on our side nothing is impossible. It says that He will not tempt us past what we are able but will make a way of escape for us. I have found recently that as I have made the move closer to him that what has looked like a dead end street can actually have a camouflaged turn or way of escape but it’s only found the closer we get to it. If we continue to see the street as a dead end we will never find the way out that is hidden there at the end because we can’t see it with all our avoidance of it altogether. I have learnt to pray now ‘Lord your Kingdom come, Your will be done on earth as it is in heaven’. When I pray like this the hopelessness is taken out of my situation and a ‘rock like’ assurance is the replacement!

God’s will for my life and for His Kingdom is for good, for the better and for best. Though I may feel trapped He can show me something that I can’t see in what is happening around me. I can also pray ‘Lord you line things up in my life according to Your will’. That means that I merely open myself to Him changing things around and then if He shows me things will be changing I can manage to cope with it as change may not be something you really want to face at all.

Usually when we want to run from something the other thing that is going on is that there is probably something there in us and around us that needs to be looked at. It is probably an area where growth or healing needs to occur. Now if we are praying God’s will and walking in His ways he wants to bring us healing so He will manoeuvre things around in order to achieve the desired result.

God will bring the freedom that we need. Try not to head off into the bush like I thought was a good idea, for a start (even though I was only imagining) I didn’t have what was needed to do that either. It would mean I wouldn’t take care of things that I need to. If I get close to God then I can let him reveal what the next move is. As I have shared with some friends recently, I don’t get myself in a pickle trying to figure out what that next move, His will is for my life. I just ask him to line things up and give me eyes to see and ears to hear what it is and then I rest in His strength and find peace for the next leg of the journey. I don’t have to run except to him, and hiding from God is impossible anyway!!!!!!!!!!

~By Cam Richmond~
~Written in June 2010~

Prayer for Today…

My prayer today is… ‘Lord help trust you today. Help me to face the things that I want to run from and give me a dose of your supernatural peace which passes all understanding’.

Word For Life

Run:
Move fast by using one’s feet, with one foot off the ground at any given time. Escape or flee; take to one’s heels; cut and run.

Hide:
Prevent from being seen or discovered; Be or go into hiding; keep out of sight, as for protection and safety. Go into hiding or conceal oneself; cover as if with a shroud; make undecipherable or imperceptible by obscuring or concealing.

Quotes

“It’s not hard to find the truth. What is hard is not to run away from it once you have found it.” ~Unknown~

“You can’t run away from trouble. There ain’t no place that far.”~ James Baskett~ (American Actor, 1904-1948)

“He is a man of courage who does not run away, but remains at his post and fights against the enemy.” ~Socrates~

 

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Waiting


Are you waiting?

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I wait

I wait for God
to open new doors
portals of change
though I’m not sure what

I wait for God
to meet my needs
physical and emotional
though I’m not sure how

I wait for God
to guide my steps
forward or sideways
though I’m not sure where

I wait

I wait for clarity
I wait for decisions
I wait for answers
I wait for understanding

I wait

Waiting feels helpless
powerless and futile
I want to take action
I want to have answers

Then I remember
the power in waiting
in truly waiting on God
and sitting in stillness

I can have peace while I wait
freedom in resting
deep breath in, deep breath out
I don’t have to see the whole picture
to know it is there

I can have trust while I wait
freedom in releasing
God will be there
even if I don’t know…

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Living in the Shadow of Shame


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The shames of the past actually don’t remain in the past; they walk with us each day unannounced but make themselves felt in every choice and decision that we make and in every reflection we see of ourselves…

I have been thinking a lot about shame… Its not something that I have ever given time to consider before in my life although there are things that I am ashamed of and hide from in my life. Things have been revealing themselves as shame and I have started to see a pattern emerging in me and many people around me.

How many of our reactions and responses are hopes and dreams are coloured by shame… and the shame is not just over things that we ourselves have done. I have been reminded lately of shames connected with family and parents… the same in every family really and often how they affect us each every day are the same too…

I grew up in a family that had a problems, my mum had a form of mental illness and so her behaviour was out of the ordinary, and the problems associated with it caused me to feel ashamed of her behaviour and somehow that reflected onto me too and so I carried it…

I felt like I had to apologise for her, to different people, in different situations right throughout my life, somehow even in my growing up years I knew that it wasn’t her fault somehow and that she was and is an amazing woman…. I remember times where she had said things to people by way of her strong opinion that I totally disagreed with and I wanted to apologise to people on her behalf and on my behalf. What is that all about? Isn’t it wrong to take on the shame from someone else’s behaviour? But we do it, we feel it, we sense it, and we hope that by doing so we may go some way towards making whatever it is right.

I was speaking to one of my sons friends… His mum had ‘gone off’ at him, and taken it out on my son a bit too… This boy who is very troubled by things in his life and has some kind of behavioural problem couldn’t stop apologising to me and trying to make it right… He is a good boy in his heart and so over and over again he messaged me to see if I was upset with him etc. and I tried to reassure him that it is not his fault, to SOME extent even his mum’s fault as they are in a difficult situation… I related to carrying that shame and embarrassment of living with someone else’s behaviour or illness…

I was reminded of the passages in the bible that talk about the ‘sins of the father’ being passed down through the sons and I thought that it was a similar thing… Win sin goes shame, hand in hand they walk and take all they can with them…

So where is shame hiding in my life right now? The areas have been coming to light and I am starting to see a pattern emerge of where shame does hide and then you begin to identify the tell-tale signs of shame in others too… Shame is crippling.

When building a relationship with a teenager one of the important things it to keep shame away, if you want them to open up to you and relate to you they have to feel primarily loved and accepted because as you see, if they don’t feel this they will only hide from you and if they feel they have disappointed you then they do not want you to find out because that make them ashamed and they don’t want you to feel that way either…

In some tricky way, shame has become entwined with the need for approval and acceptance. And low self-esteems provide a platform for shame to hide under…

So I am seeing shame that has been hiding in me from years gone by and I am seeing shame that is in my life from yesterday… As I learn to accept that I am loved, accept that I am accepted and learn to accept forgiveness and also forgive myself  I will begin the walk out from shames shadow…

Do not let shame play hide and seek in your life, if you see shame there, his brothers guilt and low self-esteem are there also … The whole family needs evicting – don’t feel sorry for them they are no family of yours!

~By Cam Richmond~

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