Living Out of Love…

Dear Lord, Thank you for this brand new day and his brand New Year. It’s so good when we get the opportunity start things again.This year there are more changes ahead of me and you know, even more than I, exactly how I feel about the things that are to come, even better than I know myself. At the end of last year I began to perceive the things that were ahead of me and even at that stage I didn’t handle it too well… I am so glad that I could begin to work it through with you even then and begin to see why I was reacting and responding the way I was.

So I am asking you to help me through these things, give me the grace to over come the things that pain me and stretch me and scare me. I know you hold my world in the palm of your hands and you will see me through it.

Give me courage to let go of the things that I fear letting go of and give me your peace that it will all be ok, no matter what does or does not happen in the coming months.

Help me to watch my motivations regarding my choices and help me to know which decisions are the right ones and for the right reasons. Thank you that you will protect my heart better than I ever could and so it’s better to release control to you and when I come to the choices I have to make, help me to remember to quiet myself, even if only for a few minutes and listen to hear what you are saying rather than go with my emotions which only want to prevent pain, stress, opening wounds etc.

I think if I approach the situations that I may face with this in mind, in the end it will all work out ok. I will not only seek to protect myself from pain but will seek to get through things with your help. And I know that if you take things away from us, it’s usually only to give us something better, in a different way.

Thank you also for showing me more about myself, my coping mechanisms, and the reasons behind them. When I sense things are happening that are getting to close for comfort it triggers off those old responses which you are now ready to deal with.

I know that you are reaching within the heart of me and asking me to release things to you, things that at this time are still the hardest to Let go of but you know where my security has lain and why and I know you will help me to shift the weights across to you without anything toppling over.

I also pray that you will give me your peace which passes all understanding and that as things are changing I can transition through them and my emotions and reactions will come into alignment with your will and character.

It’s so important for me to ‘be okay’ with things and not pine over the past, present and future. I want to ‘be okay’ with it, that’s almost better than being fine with it in the first place and not caring.

You know things which I am speaking of here without me elaborating on anything, please take it all in your hands and give me courage as a lion to be fearless in the face of change, transition, loss, and new things!

Thank you Lord

In Jesus Name

Amen!

  I am sure I am not the only one that feels this way about things in their life right now. It can be a time of uncertainty and distress over the unknown. I have realised that so often our choices are based on protecting our hearts from pain and so we seek to preserve the status quo of our lives out of love and also out of fear.

We need to live our lives from a place of love and security, from a place of knowing that we are held and secure. But we can only learn to live our lives from this place of love and security once we let go of what we think will protect and be best for us and by doing so we will then live out of love and security. You can’t put the cart before the horse here, have to let go of the fear or fear and jut do it, then you can find that real at stability in God that will cause us to live more freely.

I hope that what I have shared inspires you to have courage and see your motives and make choices to over come things rather than protecting your heart and staying stuck riot where you are… Looks like I will have no choice 🙂

Much love Cam

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To The Unforgotten…

Dear friend, 
I have had you on my heart, you come to my mind and visit 
my dreams and you would never even know.

You would think that I had forgotten you but through 
the years I have thought of you at different times and 
wondered of your well-being. 

It has been so long since I saw you and so many hills, 
valleys, mountains and plains have passed between us 
but God has journeyed with each of us and He 
is the bridge the bridge over all of the still, 
peaceful and troubled waters in our lives.

I just want you to know that whatever as happened 
in your life my heart goes out to you and I am sorry 
for your pains and heartaches… None of us can avoid them. 

May your heart be healed and mended, gently sewn 
together with patches of His love that can fill any 
gap well…

You don’t have to explain it to me, just know that 
you are accepted and loved.

God has watched between us while we have been 
apart one from another.

All my love
xoxox

I had a friend on my heart and I wrote this for her… it is not of importance to anyone else but me who it is… She may never read this but that isn’t the point.

There are so many of us that have ‘unforgotten’ ones in our lives, lost through death or sickness, time, circumstances, ill will, offence or choice.

We may not all feel about them as I do here about my friend but there are other ‘unforgotten’ ones in my life, that when I think of, there is pain and grief, loss and fear….

I give each one of these to God and ask him to watch between us while we are apart and I ask Him to decide whether these ones should become a part of my life again…

There are those who take themselves away… for many reasons… and I pray such as these find peace and healing in their lives and that once again they may be brought back to us… But only when the time is right, when there is no pain, when there is healing and wholeness and readiness.

He gives us some for a reason, some for a season and some for a lifetime. We must come to a peace about this, and learn to let go of different relationships… It doesn’t mean the love is not there, it just means there is wisdom there ❤

Much love

Cam

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Finding Hope for a Brand New Day….

I’m thinking of you all that are struggling right now today… My heart goes out to you all..I have sat and read through my whole Newsfeed on Facebook and all the joy, hope, positivity, life and love that was contained in there. While it was so good to read and just what we need to be reading… I think of the ones that struggling right now…

I sit here in bed, just sensing the anxiety that is going on inside me, it’s about a whole lot of different things, it’s not my choice, and I don’t want to feel this way but I do and my place is to share where I am at because I know that there are many others of you that are feeling the same way as me, and probably much worse…

If you struggle with depression or anxiety it’s a very real thing, most of my friends don’t have the same issues with anxiety that I have had,and although what I go through isn’t as bad as other people I think this so important to acknowledge that life isn’t all joy and roses.

Life for a lot of people is a very real struggle and I pray that this year you will find a way out of the depression and anxiety that at times binds you and holds you in place.

I pray you will find peace and most of all I pray that you will find hope… At one point only 2-3 years ago I lost hope… It was nowhere to be found and I was so scared that I wouldn’t find it again…

It was so far removed from where it used to be in my life that I didn’t know that it was possible for it to be a part of me again but somehow I made it through the murky greyness that surrounded me again and I found the Light again, which was really there the whole time, perhaps just hidden behind my clouds.

When hope was lost it changed everything that I thought and saw and believed… It challenged everything I ever hoped or believed, it destabilised my core…

Hopelessness and the struggle with anxiety and depression are so real, but we can make it through again… If you have lost hope, this is the first thing you need to have, once you have hope again, you can make it through and into the place of believing again.

Don’t feel bad, don’t feel like you are the only one, that you are so weak, such a failure, what on earth is wrong with you… You are far from alone! The best thing about that is that we can link arms and we can make it through together…

I go through seasons, this is one of them, and while I am here I just wanted to remind you that we can make it through and my prayer for this year is that you will find a way through, know you are not alone, and do whatever it takes to give yourself the best odds by getting the help you need, in whatever healthy forms that it can take…

Please don’t sit and wait, don’t do nothing, take the smallest steps each day and then keep walking each day after that.

My Light is my salvation, Jesus, I am thankful for him, watching, waiting, standing by me, trusting, giving me His strength and peace, and having faith that I will make it through again to an open light space with room to breathe and move and find life and HOPE…

Join me on the journey at least, don’t stay where you are, if you do nothing will change, and there is room for change and great things to happen every day and they do, if we but look and see…

Much love
Cam

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